"Push" Reading about Precious Jones made me really appreciate everything I have - supporting family, good friends, an education and a promising future. I often take for granted the things I have in my life. I don't stop to think about how lucky I am to have a high school education or to be able to have the opportunity to obtain a college degree. I don't stop to think about how much my friends and family care about me and that I always have their help and support. It's things like this that get overlooked on a daily basis. After being exposed to the life of Precious Jones, I feel very fortunate to have all that I have. Precious had nothing - almost since the very beginning of her life. Her parents weren't mentally stable. She didn't have any positive influences in or out of school. Abuse was something she experienced nearly everyday and a low self-esteem followed her almost everywhere. Then, if her life wasn't difficult enough - she gets pregnant twice by her own father, whom also infects her with HIV. It was remarkable to see her overcome every obstacle that was thrown her way. After the amount of physical and mental abuse she was put through, she still had the desire to successfully raise her children, get a solid education and find a job that would enable her to be a more independent person. No matter how depressed and low she felt, she would always try to see the light at the end of the tunnel. She knew that she was meant to be someone special and there wasn't anything that could stop her from achieving her aspirations. I think about this story and how it is about this one girl and the many complications she was presented with throughout her life. Then I think about all the other people who may be out there experiencing the same situations. When you read a book like this you're hit with a sense of reality. You see that things really aren't perfect and that some people do in fact go through such events as rape, abuse, bullying, early pregnancy, incest, etc. This book has most definitely caused me to be more grateful for all that I have and to above all - value my education. If there is one thing I took most from Push it is that we shouldn't underestimate the power of education.

"Fun Home" Aside from the main characters - Alison & the parents - I question how her brothers felt about the family situation. She doesn't go into much detail about them other than their playful time together and moments when the dad forced them to help with home renovations. I'm curious to know if they have the same views as Alison and if they were as affected by the events as she was. Since neither one of the brothers was homosexual I'm sure they didn't have as much difficulty growing up as Alison did; however, with the parents being so emotionally detached I'm sure they still experienced many hard times. I wonder if they even cared that there was very little communication between children and parents. In the previous books we've read this semester, in particular Ensler's writing, it is suggested that women are more emotional than men. I think that idea can connect with Alison's "Fun Home" too. Because of Alison's gender did she take the family's disconnection more seriously than the brother's? Since there isn't much mention about the boys, it's left to the imagination to figure out how they may have felt about certain encounters with the mom and dad. So many questions come to mind when I think about her brother's reactions over her own. For example: - How do the brother's react when they eventually find out that their dad experimented with homosexual behavior? - Was there any connection between the boys and the parents? Was either one more like the mom or the dad or neither? - Did the brother's care as much that they never had quality time with the parents? - The brothers had each other and Alison was more or less alone. Do you think the boys' connection with each other made up for their lack of communication with the parents? - Did either brother ever take notice of Alison's homosexual tendencies? When her sexual orientation was finally determined what were the brother's reactions? Did they care? Were they surprised? Based on the information provided by Alison, these questions probably cannot be answered. However, it is still interesting to ponder what the brother's may have felt over those years and if they had similar feelings as Alison.

"Fun Home" Bechdel covers a variety of themes throughout her story. A couple that had an impression on me were identification and regret. I personally feel that these are the two main themes of the book. Bechdel's difficulty with determining her identity was an issue she seemed to deal with since childhood. She preferred to look and act like a boy rather than a girl. In the beginning I didn't think too much of it because young kids don't always identify with things that society may deem gender specific. For instance, young girls may want to play in the dirt as opposed to dressing up and young boys may choose to play dress up instead of rolling in dirt. It doesn't necessarily mean anything when you're a young child, but if such feelings persist through adolesence and young adulthood then it may be hard to decipher who you really are. I believe that dealing with such a situation is difficult to begin with; however, if you do not have anyone to talk to or get support from then the problem becomes much worse. In Bechdel's case she never had anyone to turn to for help. Her parents were distant not only from each other, but from Alison and her brothers as well. There were no emotions expressed between any family members, which caused a social barrier. There was information that was never disclosed to any of the kids until they were older. When Bechdel started college she became more aware of homosexuality and felt that maybe she was a lesbian. I felt a sense of denial within Bechdel when the two girls invited her to the lesbian-feminist concert. She acted like they were freaks instead of people that she could finally talk to about her feelings. When Bechdel found out about her dad's homosexual experiences I know at first she was shocked, but I think there was also a feeling of understanding...almost like an "a-ha" moment where she finally could see where she came from. In Bechdel's case I don't know how I would react to such news. I could either be happy that I now had a connection with a parent who I never felt close to; or upset because someone I thought I knew isn't really who they seemed to be. It has to be a very difficult situation either way, probably quite traumatizing too.

"Fun Home" This book has been a decent read thus far. I wasn't expecting it to take such drastic twists and turns, which is why I think I've managed to maintain interest. The father figure didn't initially come off as the selfish and unemotional man he turned out to be. At the very start I thought he was just going to be one of those dad's that just isn't a family guy, but his character grew to be much more intriguing than that. He was insane, perhaps bi-polar. For him to treat his home furnishings better than his own kids clearly demonstrates some kind of mental illness. In some sense he was a very confusing character as well. You get a feeling that he doesn't really know what he wants out of life. It's almost like after he left Europe to return home to run his father's funeral business, he kind of lost sight of what he really wanted. He had a wife and three kids and it seemed he wasn't where he wanted to be. You don't want to side with the dad, but in some way you have to feel sorry for him. As much of a bastard as he was, he was lost-confused-and really just unable to connect with anyone. When you're alone and don't have anyone to turn to you become angry. Unfortunately, his wife and children received the brunt of his rage. It was also a surprise when he died. But, it wasn't just his death that shocked me it was the emotion that his family expressed as well. They were somewhat content with the idea that he was gone forever. When it was suspected that his death may have been suicide I wasn't very thrown back. I hadn't thought of it as being a suicide prior to the suggestion, but the various clues given afterwards really make you think about whether he was trying to hint something all along. Anyway, it is turning out to be a pretty good book. I am curious to see what else goes on with her family, but at the same time I'm not too thrilled about reading such a depressing book.

I Am An Emotional Creature (Post #2)

Ensler suggests throughout her book that all girls are emotional. I have to disagree and say that not all girls are emotional to the degree in which she portrays them in I Am an Emotional Creature. I don't doubt that there are young girls among us who go through very similar situations and express those kinds of feelings as Ensler describes, but as a female I can honestly say I've never been as emotional as the teens in this book. I don't find it accurate for her to say that all girls are emotional.

I'm not emotional. Well, at least not like the girls in this book anyway. Of course I have feelings and what not, but I have never expressed them or felt the need to like the characters Ensler describes. I keep stuff to myself. I don't like to talk about emotions nor do I like to hear about anyone elses feelings. I suppose I am this way because of my personality and perhaps surrounding family. My parents and I don't share our emotions and feelings...and that's fine by me. We keep everything to ourselves. Some people may deem this as socially unhealthy, but it works for me.

Everyone is emotional, guys and girls. Some people are just more in tune with their feelings than others. We all get angry, sad, confused, detached, attached, etc. Women have just been stereotyped and portrayed as being very emotional and men are perceived as being strong and unemotional. I don't believe these stereotypes at all. Based on personal experience I have seen cases where guys show more emotion than girls and vice versa. Men cry. They may deny it, but we all know they do. Men don't show their emotions as much as women because of how society suggests they should act. We believe men should be tough and always together and women are free to express as much emotion as they want. I say, who cares what society thinks. We're all human. We all have emotions. We should all feel free to withold our feelings or express ourselves in anyway we choose.

I Am an Emotional Creature by Eve Ensler.

In this book Ensler once again focuses on female topics just as she had done in the Vagina Monologues. However, in this book she seems to bring more attention to teenage girls as oppose to the variety of ages she incorporated into the V. Monologues. I Am an Emotional Creature begins with Ensler describing a young girl's school experience and the difficulty she has with trying to find herself and a group she can most identify with. It gives insight into what many young girls her age may go through early on in their school careers. Teenagers often go to drastic measures just to fit in with a certain group. They don't think about who they really are, but rather they just have their mind set on becoming one of the popular kids. When I was in grade school I never had a goal of being popular instead I just hung around with anyone - no matter what "group" they were classified as being a part of. I guess I was lucky to be able to see people as individuals and not as "groups." I have seen instances happen where kids put down their real friends just so they can have a shot at being with the popular students. It's sad to see such an event take place. Here you have one kid thinking they have a good friend by their side and when that one friend turns on them they're left feeling unwanted and confused. There's no doubt that it's hard being a kid. At that age you still don't know exactly who you are or who you want to be so you're very influential and naive. It takes time to realize your true self and understand the errors you've made and kids don't often experience this revelation until their early twenties or so.

With this particular story Ensler told at the start of I Am an Emotional Creature, I believe it can not only be understood by young girls, but by young boys as well. I think boys want to feel accepted and popular just as much as girls, however I'm unsure of whether boys go to the same extent to fit in as girls do. In Ensler's story the girl bought certain shoes, clothes, make-up, etc...but would a boy buy certain sneakers, clothes, etc to fit in with a certain group of kids? I do believe it is hard to find your place no matter what gender you are, especially as a teenager, but I don't know if maybe it's harder for teen girls rather than teen boys?

Question:

For Ensler, language is important. Why? What does it matter what we call body parts? What is the importance of language in defining sexuality, bodies, etc? Why do you think she asks those questions about what vaginas would wear, etc? What is she trying to do with that?

Response:

Ensler mentions in the beginning how when she was growing up the women who were present in her life referred to the vagina as the "down there." She lists off the various slang terms people have assigned to the vagina and I think people do this to avoid feeling awkward. Ensler is right when she says, "Vagina. Doesn't matter how many times you say it, it never sounds like a word you want to say." (Ensler, page 5). There is just something about the word itself that sounds uncomfortable.

I suppose it doesn't really matter what we call body parts. We all have our own personal choice, but in Ensler's opinion she believes that by using slang and refraining from using the word "vagina" then we are keeping distance from something that is really everywhere and unavoidable in some sense. We can clearly show the kind of person we are through the language we use. In the case of The Vagina Monologues - those who abstain from saying "vagina" come off as more conservative and uncomfortable as oppose to someone who may openly throw around the proper term and show no sense of discomfort in talking about it. We're all different and I really think that Ensler tries to emphasize this in the various monologues she has incorporated in her book.

Ensler also talks about giving the vagina its own name - not so much a slang name, but rather a real name...She wants people to treat it as if it were a person. Maybe not like a person, but she just strives to make people aware that it is there and you cannot escape it so why not just embrace it and get to know it. She believes that by giving it a name you can become more comfortable with yourself. I don't necessarily agree with this, but I can see where she is coming from with that idea. When you personalize something it makes it more real, more important.

Ensler dedicates this book to helping women (and perhaps men too) become more aware of the female body. She wants to promote the importance of stopping sexual violence and to also show the diversity among women, but the similarity they share as well. Sometimes when you think you're the only one experiencing something its nice to be reassured that you're not always alone. By using the language of humor, sadness and anger Ensler successfully engages an audience and spreads her message(s) worldwide.

Question:

Emotion plays a huge role in what Ensler is trying to accomplish. Why is this? How does she use emotions like humor as a strategy? How does she move us from laughter to embarrassment to sadness to other emotional reactions and why do you think she is doing this?

Response:

Emotion is the primary focus in Ensler's Vagina Monologues. She strives to display how different yet similar women are when it comes to discussing the female body. Ensler is succesful in such an attempt by including a variety of stories, which ultimately show some sign of relevance to each other. In each interview I could tell there was some hesitation in the women openly talking about their body, but eventually they became more comfortable and almost relieved to finally being able to talk to someone about it. I suppose that that was also what Ensler was going for with this book. She wanted to break the ice and hear what everyone has to say. I can't think of too many people, if any, who ever choose to freely talk about their vagina and in this book those unsure feelings are brought forth and the women seem to ultimately discover a sense of who they are.

Ensler uses humor as a strategy because everyone always feels more comfortable in awkward situations when they feel they can laugh. I hate talking and reading about the human body. I've always hated health class too. It's just awkward. When I saw we had to read this book I felt weird just reading it on the syllabus nevermind checking it out at the library. Anyway, as I read more into it I felt less awkward because of the humor Ensler uses throughout. After she discusses a more seriously toned interview she'll follow up with a more light-hearted story. I found myself laughing a few times, which definitely eased up on the weirdness of reading about vaginas.

She definitely causes readers to switch emotions rather abruptly. She just seems to be giving us a good feel of how differently women view their bodies, but how similar some of the stories are as well. Some interviews are amusing and others are more upsetting, such as the section pertaining to rape victims. She wants everyone to know that we are just about all thinking the same thing and feeling the same emotions toward ourselves. We almost all find the same things embarrassing, amusing and sad and through this book it is like she's just bringing it all together so we can see we're all somewhat alike.

Haitian History

When reading stories that are based around a particular culture it is important to have basic knowledge about that culture. The stories we have been reading focus on the Haitian lifestyle and to better understand the material I've researched some information on the culture.

Toussaint L'Ouverture: "Toussaint L'Ouverture, the black chieftain of Hayti, was a slave on the plantation "de Libertas," belonging to M. Bayou. When the rising of the negroes took place, in 1791, Toussaint refused to join them until he had aided M. Bayou and his family to escape to Baltimore. The white man had discovered in Toussaint many noble qualities, and had instructed him in some of the first branches of education; and the preservation of his life was owing to the negro's gratitude for this kindness. In 1797, Toussaint L'Ouverture was appointed, by the French government, General-in-Chief of the armies of St. Domingo, and, as such, signed the Convention with General Maitland for the evacuation of the island by the British. From this period, until 1801, the island, under the government of Toussaint, was happy, tranquil, and prosperous. The miserable attempt of Napoleon to re-establish slavery in St. Domingo, although it failed of its intended object, proved fatal to the negro chieftain. Treacherously seized by Leclerc, he was hurried on board a vessel by night, and conveyed to France, where he was confined in a cold subterranean dungeon, at Besancon, where, in April, 1803, he died. The treatment of Toussaint finds a parallel only in the murder of the Duke D'Enghien. It was the remark of Godwin, in his Lectures, that the West India Islands, since their first discovery by Columbus, could not boast of a single name which deserves comparison with that of Toussaint L'Ouverture." (Whittier).

Whittier, John. "Toussaint L'Ouverture." Reference Answers. N.p., 2011. Web. 12 Feb 2011. http://www.answers.com/topic/toussaint-l-ouverture-1.

Voodoo Religion: "Roman Catholicism is the official religion of Haiti, but voodoo may be considered the country's national religion. The majority of Haitians believe in and practice at least some aspects of voodoo. Most voodooists believe that their religion can coexist with Catholicism." ("Traveling Haiti").
1937: "Thousands of Haitians living near the border of the Dominican Republic are massacred by Dominican soldiers under the orders of President General Trujillo." ("Traveling Haiti").


History of Haiti." Traveling Haiti. N.p., 2011. Web. 12 Feb 2011. http://www.travelinghaiti.com/history.asp.

Boukman: "A leader of the rebellion in its initial stages, he is reputed to have led a vodou ceremony together with the mambo Cecile Fatiman at Bois Caïman on August 22, 1791 which signaled the start of the rebellion. He had come to Saint-Domingue by way of Jamaica, then to become a maroon in the forest of Morne Rouge. Giant, powerful, "grotesque-looking man... with a 'terrible countenance', a face like an exaggerated African carving." Fierce and fearsome, he was an inspiring leader. While Boukman was not the first to lead a slave rebellion in Saint-Domingue, as he was preceded by others such as Padrejean in 1676 and François Mackandal in 1757, he delivered the spark that helped to ignite the Haitian Revolution." ("Boukman").

"The L'Ouverture Project." Boukman. N.p., 2011. Web. 12 Feb 2011. http://thelouvertureproject.org/index.php?title=Boukman.

Massacre River: "tragedy, not geography, forms the real border. Its name, as any Dominican or Haitian can tell you, is the same as that of the deceptively calm northern river: The Massacre. During just a few weeks in October 1937, Dominican soldiers killed 30,000 Haitians along the border because the victims' skin was dark, even though Dominicans were just a few shades lighter. The events still divide the Dominican Republic and Haiti so deeply that there may as well be an ocean not only around them but between them." (Wucker).

Wucker, Michele. "The River Massacre." HaitiForever. N.p., 2011. Web. 12 Feb 2011. .

Nye’s poetry directly reflects her own perspectives on humanity. She seems to strongly believe in cultural connection and the elimination of stereotyping. Being that she is a Palestinian American, I feel her writing can express a greater truth since she has experienced ethnic stereotyping and disconnection on a first-hand basis. In her poem My Father and the Fig Tree, she discussed her father’s lack of connection with his Palestinian culture. He claims that Palestine had the greatest figs and since his childhood years in that country, he has yet to have a fig just as good since his move to Texas. Her dad repeatedly tells stories in which he incorporates the fig tree. By always mentioning fig trees it shows that her dad cannot let go of his culture nor should he. The dad is determined to feel equally connected to his home in Texas and his Palestinian culture. He believes that in order to feel the connection he needs to plant his own fig tree. Once he plants his own fig tree he begins to feel less split between the two cultures. I believe Nye wants us to understand how difficult immigrating to a new culture can be. It is more than just a move – it is a new beginning and in often times a drastic change in lifestyle. People want to feel a sense of belonging and in the case of immigration that is not always an easy feeling to develop.

In Nye’s poem Grandmother, the subject of stereotyping is brought to attention. The idea of stereotyping does not consume the entire poem, but rather it was an aspect that caught my attention. Many ideas can be taken from this poem; however, I feel that stereotyping played an important factor in the poem. Nye greatly respects her grandmother. She sees her as a wise, religious, knowledgeable and well-respected woman. The community around the grandmother always went to her for advice or for a healing touch. She was very experienced and had seen a lot in her day, which made her a very well-rounded individual. After Nye expressed her grandmother’s impressive talents she mentions the grandmother’s inability to read. I believe that by putting her greatest characteristics first she was trying to convey that her being illiterate was rather an insignificant part of who she was. In the United States it is crucial to be literate. If you cannot read then your chance at success is very limited. Our country may see Nye’s grandmother as unimportant and worthless primarily based on her inability to read; however, if we focused on her talents rather than her flaws then we would see she is a very valuable individual. It is important to see someone for who they are and not for what they know. We focus too much on everyone’s imperfections. We would all be better off if we saw everyone’s talents before their inadequacies.

Nye is painting a picture of life and how she understands it. She sees the world as disconnected, but is confident that we can eventually all connect and appreciate one another. Her poetry expresses the great potential humanity has to arrive at peace. Our world has become very diverse and violent and as she sees it we must bring all our differences together and create some similarities.